insyaAllah

good luck
surely,
i'll pray for your success 
insyaAllah

heart disease

to suddenly 

do something immature

decide

listen to people's words

that

according to you

were all lies and rumors..

she was confused

you may call her coward

you may call her weird

but

the truth 

the ugly truth 

to suddenly disappear

to destroy the thinnest thread 

that 

for years

served as the strongest bridge

that linked

two greedy and immature birds 

the will of wanting to be

 occult

the will that at the end

everyone knows

that's not what she wants

to ignore
to be heartless
was not easy


when hearing 

 irony whispers 


in every single second
in every beat of her heart
was not easy

still
she believes

it is not because of hatred

not because of anger.

not anymore..

but

because of a disease

named

..confusion..

food for thought?

Recalling the memories of 21 years ago, I noticed that after my mom gave me appeton pills,

I started to love eating almost everything! 

I think appeton pills really managed to change my eating habbit..

yeaa.. from a choosy-picky-eater to  hantam-sajala-eater!!

(nasib baik bukan man-eater)

xpercaya?

sila la percaya..huhu..

Red Velvet Cake for my friends' birthday! :)

the truth is, long time ago, i was a stubborn and big-headed girl. I didn't want to consume rice, vegetable, chicken, fish n egg. worse, I didn't want to drink milk as well!! 

At that time, my body was really thin..but..still with a chubby face 

(pusaka keluarga +_+ ) 

cz I only ate ice cream, cakes, chocolates and crepes.

typical naughty child kan?

I still remember..

in almost every single dinner or lunch time, 

I'd be the center of attention as my parents *especially mak* 

would try their best to force me to finish my meal.

n they also tried to make me swallow different types of multivitamins pills as they're too worried that I'd fall sick easily.

but..

remember..

i was a naughty child

with

a smart brain 

kann? :p

so what i did was..

sorokkan those pills in my pocket, under the table, inside the chair's cushion, or even throw it on top of the cupboard!! 

or..

sumbat dalam straw n pura2 minum air

-.-

until one fine day..

when i was 8yrs old,

i was diagnosed with chronic gastric -.-

it was really painful that i couldn't move, eat, drink and sleep.

haaaaa..balasan kan main tipu2 makan?n buang2 rezeki?

ish3

my mom told the doctor (more like mengadu actually)

how i really hate to eat normal food.

dakara,

the doctor gave my mom appeton pills and reminded her not to give me directly,

but to be put in my food.

a few months after that..

yesssss..i started to love food!!

 and I noticed that I can eat almost everything asalkan halal.

hehehe

thus

that's the reason why I always cook and bake to fulfill my brand new 'healthy' appetite.

muahahhahahha

and

the reason for my parents' happiness too when they get to know that

i'm GAINing weight! -.-

*for them, it's a sign that i'm eating healthily and normally*

Nasi Kerabu Perantau :) nyummyyy

so, apa kaitan dengan gambar dua2 ni?

hahaha..

fyi, both are some of my favorite food! :)

but I never tried to cook n bake them before

not until last week!! 

first, i tried to bake Red Velvet cake for my friends' birthday.

i felt quite nervous

wondering too much the 'what if' situations

-what if the cake did not turn red?-

-what if the cake did not taste great?-

-what if the cake turned dry and flaky?-

n mamimumemoooooo

lots of negative thoughts!

but luckily,

the cake turned great!!

both the bday boy n girl love their cake so much!

hoyeahhhh~ ^_^

secondly,

yesterday..i tried to cook nasi Kerabu! 

fyi, I started to learn eating nasi kerabu when I was in STF

my best friend, Sya2 is from Terengganu.

so..whenever we went to bazar ramadhan,

this is what she'd search for 1st.

After the trial session, 

I found that he preparation for the complete set of Nasi Kerabu took me quite a longgggggg time!!

from making sambal, cutting the ulams, frying the kerabu ikan, frying the chickens and cooking the BLUE rice!!

~almost 2hours and half in kitchen~

Syukur

hasilnya sgt3 memberangsangkan 

and based on my own taste buds,

i loike it very muchhhhH!!

tastier compared to those i bought in Pasar Malam Kerinchi

hehhehehe

n my friend said,

LULUS! ^_^

burger ala2 kat gerai tepi jalan as breakfast pg semalam :p

Kesimpulannya,

marilah bersenam demi menjamin kesihatan unggul di masa depan

demi menyingkirkan segala lemak2 tak berfaedah di badan.

demi memastikan anda masih boleh menikmati makanan2 enak seperti ini sehingga ke masa tua.

60years in future

cucu: nenek..nenek ni cool lahhhh..dah 82 tahun pon still bole senam2 lagi.bole masak2..sedap2 lak tuu!! 

nenek cool: *bergenang air mata, terseyum simpul ayu sambil menikmati Red Velvet cake*

~insyaAllah~

p/s: any suggestion of what should I try to cook or bake after this? 

^_^

by the way,

this is really an example of food for thought kannn?kannn?

~it's a guilty pleasure~

Salam n hi!

tbe2 ade mood nk update blog..so..here we go!! sbnarnye baru balik dr skolah nii..it's quite tiring as the school session here is longer than ours back in Malaysia. Yeah, most of the schools in England start their school session at 9am and end at 3.30pm. lebih kurang je dgn Malaysia sebenarnya. it's just me mengada nak komen2 mcm2. +_+

ok, abaikan.

Hurmmm,

here is the main issue. 

right now hari2 pk camne nk kurus. cmne nk kurus. hahahha. LAME~ biasa lah perempuan. xhabes2 pk psl ni. To be honest, i did try to ignore this matter. But, I just can't!! sebab apa? sebab every time i skype wf my family, they'll laugh at me and call me Pipi Pau. Bengang btol. n kebetulan pulak salu kantoi tgh mkn chocolate masa skype tu. errrrr, couldn't help it la mak, ayah. I just fall in love wf UK's chocs!! cz they are super cheapppp!! can u imagine, even the cheapest choc (ASDA brand = Giant's brand) which costs me jz 30pence is tastier compared to Cadbury chocs. 

Itu baru chocolate. x cite lagi pasal baking stuff, cooking stuff..dessert..sume2 lahhh..they are way cheaper here!! cheese, cocoa powder, mascarpone ect2. That's why whenever I feel bored, I'll end up baking or cooking something +_+ it's a guilty pleasure i wud say! :p

hehe

~blushing~

One of my friends told me, it's ok to eat a lot. Just make sure u exercise a lot too!! 

DANGGGG~ 

sebijik kena kt dahi. huhu. bkn xnk exercise. tp kt cni exercise la byk mana pon..xpeluh lgsung!! unless kalau exercise in somewhere indoor or pakai tebal2 gila. n trust me, i had tried both ways. 

and 

I fainted

hahahha. entah apa kena tah. abang kacak kt gym tu ckp, maybe I hv low blood pressure. that's why i need more oxygen compared to others. haih, buat malu je depan abg kacak. +_+

So kesimpulannya, exercise bila blk msia je la nnt. kat malaysia nak jalan p angkat baju depan rumah pon boleh berpeluh!! haaaa..lgpon dah sign contract jd babysitter Raisya nnt. tgk dlm skype cam active gile je dye. kompem kurus jaga dye nnt!! TING! ^___^

yeayyy!! jom buat moist choc cake lagi!! 

lalalala~ 

*menyampah kan?bagai melepaskan batuk di ats tangga.malu je.haih~

Magic!

Hello and assalamualaikum!

it has been ages since my last post ayte? Sampai dpt warning from Canada gituuu.hihihi. malu I ok wahai cik dyane! :p actually, I really really really have a lot to share here. from where I have been for summer vacation, autumn getaway and winter trip..my work experience..my lotsa baking n cooking experiments..my cinta buku lima stories..kittens..warung mak milah's..n bla bla bla bla..


see?I have got a lot to tell right? but again, i'm too lazy to type 'em all here. I think, I'm a better story teller in person! don't you think so? Let's imagine, if i were in front of you, telling all the ups and downs i've experienced..won't it be interesting as I would tell 'em with variety of facial expressions, different range of intonation etc2,unexpected body gestures, etc2? ok, anyone's on my side? Helloooooooo~ *silent

ok fine.. *malu

Haishhhh..it would be great if Doraemon is here. Abg Doraemonnnn! where art thou? do u mind to sponsor me one of your machines? Preferably the one that would help me expressing my thought here without even putting my fingers on the keyboard?  Puhleaseeeeee!! In return, i'll bake dorayaki for you. wink3. >_<

So, the conclusion is? 

it's me in Paris! I look like soooo mak datin with those big shades.  yeah i know..tobat xnak pakai dah.. +_+

I'LL BE BACK!!  

but.... from which topic should I start first? Vacations? Recipes experiment? Study life? Works? or Love? ok, the last one confirm xbole pakai! let's roll the dice! :)

ding dong bell

..apa gunanya..

apa guna ketawa jika hati masih terluka

apa guna berpura jika kebenaran terlalu ketara

apa guna teratur bicaranya jika makna entah kemana

apa gunanya?

 tiada gunanya.

tiada guna jika tiap hari masih di titi yang sama

 tiada gunanya jika pintu yang dibuka ditutup semula

tiada gunanya jika kunci yang ada di campak merata

tiada gunanya.

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moral of the story:
DO NOT sleep before maghrib. eventho it's just a short nap, u'll be extra 'mamai' and worse, creating this kind of 'so-called-nukilan-hati-di-petang-hari'. 

suratan ataupun kebetulan?

Few years before, 

I had a dream. 

Someone told me to put my key on the table

..and leave the house..

Yesterday,

 I had a dream again. 

Weirdly, 

it was the same dream..

in the same house.

 Just this time, 

I was told to be ready.

The key wasn't on the table anymore.

It was on the floor..

..and what i need to do is,

to pick it up

clean it 

and

hold it tightly. 

Today,

I woke up.

and I was wondering..

..don't know what to do..

and still wondering.

____________________________

PUTIH 

sememangnya nampak bersih, suci dan tenang.

HITAM

selalunya orang kata hambar, gelap, dan kotor.

tapi hakikatnya,

tanpa setitik hitam, 

pudarlah seri putihnya.

tanpa secalit putih,

maka kosonglah gelanggang hitamnya.

ironi?

ya, itulah hakikatnya.

__________________________________________________

..still wondering..

*kebingungan boleh mengakibatkan seseorang itu mengeluarkan ayat2 yang pelik? 

adakah ia satu kenyataan atau mitos semata2?

no comment.

__________________________________________________

 am I right or am I wrong?

..still wondering..

or maybe I'm still right.

yeahhh

..still wondering..